January 18, 2008, its a date I will never forget. Its the day when it seems that everything falls into pieces and places. An unsettled issue was burning on fire that I could feel the heat, the pain, and hatred of a close friend towards me. I can feel the pain yet I couldn't speak, only to end up our conversation with "hindi ko na kailangan i-defend ang sarili ko" ("i don't need to defend myself anymore"). I know I caused her the pain, in addition to the that statement which I myself doesn't want to tell her. My heart was bursting from pain, and guilt. I stand with my false statements leaving those words made form lie. After the confrontation, I know I really made a mistake. I couldn't take it back instead I must prepare myself for its consequences. I couldn't take the burden that I feel that time. Sometimes, you need to shut your mouth for you to function well. It was not just a simple argument. It means a lot. Its a serious problem I need t...
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